July 2024
Heat, Roses, Death, Realization, Surrender
The month opened with a long awaited astrological moment, namely, the visibility of Venus as the evening star, which corresponds to the gemini Venus star point which is opposite my Jupiter so I’ve been paying attention. Speaking to beauty, relationships, purpose, life direction and the 10H MC connection.
Saturn retrograde, and Saturn squaring Jupiter adding to the mix. this is very clear to me- feeling called towards becoming a therapist of some kind, studying Jung, while also wanting and needing more money as a foundation and for the future that I want, realizing that Tom is no longer supporting me financially and that getting money from men may or may not be sustainable. A lesson about depending on myself. I’m not sure if this is healthy or coming from a lack of trust of life and other people.
At the end of the month looking back, it seems like it went by super quickly. Work was actually the busiest its ever been and I felt the exhaustion of not having any leave, basically working non stop since April/May… For myself I set the goal to take care of myself and step up to what I want in my life, less commuting, more time with dogs and learning, writing. Leaning into my creativity, dream journaling. I did it all.
Something I’m learning and seeing in therapy is that I don’t trust others and tend to keep everyone at a distance.
The month opened with 4th July weekend, continuation of therapy, GAP open house and speaking to therapists / trainees about what they’re doing, moon circle and class on relationships at Westport, Ari leaving work and visit from the head of KAS and HLPF, Daneilla’s bachelorette and vomiting on the plane after drinking three beers on a basicallyy empty stomach…. bad idea… visit in wilton to come in the pool, eye exam, asking Matthew for more money after not seeing him in weeks/months…. continuing the who am I course and accepting the photo offer from Indra to see and meet others from her groups. Finally end of the month I did speed dating, and applied for like 5 jobs.
I did start talking more about my path towards psychology programs and its becoming more of a vision plan / in me that I want to continue to ground into reality.