March 2024

March

Reflecting on this month…

The end of French course,

The start of a relationship

Lamps came

Emotional release / revisiting - phone call with tom….. nothing to say there…..

Learning how to stand in my prosperity and choose to trust that I am becoming the best version of myself no matter how hard and upset I want to be about it.

Manifesting in transformation, fire, flames, dragon energy, love energy, deep red, passion, hot sex,

Worshiping honouring the dead - messages from persephone. Research and learning about greek gods. Messages of pomegranate and lilys.

Carl jung, astrology, pluto… deeper and deeper learnings

Doing physical practices in the AM everyday, getting into my body.

Started taking thyroid support again this month, getting my cycle health and overall health as a focus of my routines.

Red candles. Mermaid candlestick holder. Venus

Learning to be in relationship with my subconscious or myth or divine, however it is supposed to be called. Spirit work.. prayer.

Doing art and exploration, letting my creativity flow in writing, painting, reading, music, shopping

Leaning into Feeling turned on by myself, by life, by not knowing.

Had sex this month for the first time in a really really long time and I mean like actually fucking somebody and its been so long like almost a whole new leveled up experience of sex in a whole new way. Its interesting. Like I feel like sex is about experiencing your self and its like such a deep profound, the most profound experiencing of yourself really and of another person and its not even on a physical level but on an emotional and spiritual level it is just profound and like an ultimate form of expression. I’ve been calling in hot sex for a few months, and manifesting through my room etc. support and partnership and it’s like coming in with inklings and little bit this month. I feel so beautiful and magnetic and myself.

Finding that garage sale and all those books about magic and astrology and brining in books about pluto and jewlergy makes me feel so good and alive its like a magnetising and pulling in and expanding my aura and energy into new areas by learning and expressing myself in new ways. It’s really fun.

Reading James hillmen

Signed up for Anastasia’s astrology course. I’ve pretty much always been interested but never took that next step to study, or commit to it. And this is one step in that direction. Taking those actions that symbolozie my commitment to myself and loving myself, caring for my growth and being everything I want…

Learning about the asteroid goddesses

Moon circle and connecting with metal dragon…

This month had many little beautiful confirmations . I didn’t get that job with the UK mission that I thought I wanted and I’m angry about that because I wanted it and don’t like failing after interviews and putting so much preparation in…. But anyway something better then is coming.

I am callingg in clarity and guidance in feeling into my purpose and everything that fulfils me and makes me feel more like myself and more beautiful in my expression and in my light. I feel more beautiful than I have in a long time, genuinely, and to be honest being around men reminded me of that and of my light and has helped me to shift my mindset even more. I love being in relationships and feel more like myself to be honest.. in some ways being alone hardens me a bit or my perception sometimes is that I am meant to be alone and my light is not seen…. But also there is

So I took more steps in the direction of my passions and purpose. ALIGNMENT guided me this month.

Delved into psychoanalysis and taking steps to learn about that direction and path of study that I feel passionate about and trusting int hat without needing to know how it all fits together or makes sense of whatever.

Also, another big thing is that im now kinda living in three places or in between the city, roslyn and wilton now which is new and nice, and interesting new energies

When I got to Geneva I want to treat myself to an Hermes scarf because I want to no other reasons needed.

This month has been all about putting my energy into new circuits and I’m seeing the seedlings of those energies swirling and manifesting around me in new ways, rippling out.

Another big message is like stepping out of my box, and affirmation that it’s okay for my internal realms to not be matched in my environment. Like I feel so out there somethings and like I don’t belong in the us or in NYC at all and seeing/learning to allow that gap. My inner world in so electric and creative and rich, royal, elegant, easeful…. All the things I feel. Its amazing to cultivate that and eventually it will move outwards which I trust…..

Another things is I just checked my Pinterest. Been using it as a tool nd home base. I posted a while ago to start the year an image of Jung’s tree… and now Jung is like all over and I want to study him…. Amazing because it just hit me that I recently saw that tree a lot…

Wanting a huge red rug of my dreams.

Remarkably, I was thinking to myself how one year ago today basically I had left Geneva. And now I am returning. I was in Prague and doing things for his visa, etc…. and then I was back for Easter. I’m going back the other way now. My life in 1 year completely transformed. Nearly everything about it. Except, I see now how there were patterns or habits and new ways of seeing myself that were emerging and being planted back then. The course I did with Candace, which was like an investment into my spiritual growth and exploration which I now have taken to a new level. There was the community vibes and French exchanges I was getting into, the exercise classes… some spiralling. One thing I want more of in my future is travels. I’m feeling into doing some type of solo trip with Bosco probably because he’s my friend, and taking months off like leaving my. job and doing a transition into something new. I want to leave my 9-5 job. Eventually.